more waiting

3rd attempt at clear margins went fine, surgery uneventful. dr. bear is what i'd call a rock star. won't know results till 31st, which seems like a long time from now, bc it kinda is.  i don't know if the waiting gets easier, or if you just become more used to the waiting itself. either way, that's the deal.  at massey, once your tissue is signed off on by pathologist, it goes before a tumor board. this really sets my imagination aflame. a tumor board?  this means an entire panel of surgeons, radiologists, oncologists, nurses, researchers, etc, are reviewing your case.  this alone separates a national cancer center, which is what massey is, from another hospital out in the 'community.'  bc there is no 'cure' for breast cancer, the best shot anyone has is a good treatment plan. having these collective experienced eyes on your case gives you a good shot at the 'best' answer possible.  and yet still, due to the nature of cancer, these answers are never written in stone, they are simply best 'guesses' based on experience and years and years of research.  cancer is weird. cancer is a beast.  but i've got a bear.  and that helps.